I’m hyper focused on (and egotistical about) my writing—when I’m doing it

But when it's done I don't feel that way because it's not important for me to feel that way anymore

I have to feel, when I'm writing a book, that it's the most important thing in the world—otherwise I wouldn't be able to do it. I wouldn't be able to do it if I thought it was unimportant—obviously, right?! If I think my project isn't supremely worth doing, how will I have the energy to write a whole book?

I cannot do that—I have to think it's the most important thing in the world (at the time)

But once it's done, my ego fades. My sense of ownership fades. My writer-centric personality fades. I don't feel any of my books are the most important projects in the world! Not now. The writing is done—the muscle releases—and my thoughts of association to those projects fades

I'm only here to press the keys on the keyboard. When I'm done, I'm done—and my thoughts move onto other things

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